Oh that's an ending that I can't write, 'cause I've got you to let me down.

'The phenomenon of "weightlessness" occurs when there is no force of support on your body. When your body is effectively in "free fall", accelerating downward at the acceleration of gravity, then you are not being supported.'

~ from hyperphysics ~

I'm tired.

I'm sorry.

It's the first day of easter holidays/spring break and I really need the break. I've been working really hard at uni, final major project has begun and I legit did nothing in the first week so I'm trying to catch up, I've also been out every-night this week, stumbling back by 11 o'clock to try and take off my makeup. The quote above kinda describes how I feel recently, just not really feeling like I'm here at the moment, I'm constantly on the move, going from my bed to uni to home then out in the evening then back to bed for a few hours before it all starts again. I don't really feel like I'm making any impact on the world at the moment, as weird and self absorbed as that sounds. 

I believe very strongly in the power of marshmallows and treating yourself to little things.

~ list of small treats ~ 

1. savory biscuits 

2. brand new socks

3. heart shaped marshmallows

4. drawing yourself 

5. buying singles from the charity shop

Black and white drawings of beautiful people on the train and from last night where I wore all black ereythang

Outfits I'm excited to wear this summer +++ fashion doodles and pretty to do list

'screw you all I am the embodiment of every flower emoji'

I put this on tumblr and got my first anon love after having tumblr for nearly three years

Movie inspiration

~ lists of cute movies ~

1. drive me crazy

2. when harry met sally

3. submarine 

4. obvious child

5. heathers (for anti cute reasons)

Its kinda sad how badly water colour scans because these pages are so cute in real life.

80's sitcom dad looks and a photo Eva took of me using her film camera

I was feeling the selfies that day 

I realized there was a security mirror in the charity shop

 doing the american apparel one leg out pose while trying on turtle necks in the charity shop

 It was the solar eclipse last week and I was taking my cat to the vet while it happened so i couldn't get a proper photo but I did get one of the sky which looked supper spooky

Resemblance to the profiteroles I ate is uncanny

things I've been watching

1. Criterion Collection - basically all these directors go through this old film archive and pick their favourite films and it's just nice to watch people be enthusiastic about what they love. My favourite video is a tie between Richard Ayoade and Edgar Wright who are two directors I love.

2. Old Film Trailers - I'm one of those people who will happily dedicate an hour to watching film trailers on youtube and then never go see the film when they come out. But recently I've been watching pre 2000's film trailers, especially 90's and 60's trailers as they're more widely available. I'm not quite sure why but I'm just really interested in how trailers used to be, I'm not necessarily saying they're better, but they choose to provide different information.

3. Every Frame A Painting - You can probably tell I'm having a film moment. Every Frame A Painting is a youtube channel that dissect films and directors in a really technical way and picks up all the details that make the film great, or in some cases not so great. It's refreshing to see someone review a film without just saying whether they liked it or not. 

4. Now Is Good - I watched this film last night and cried myself to sleep, not because it was scary or gratuitously sad or anything. It's just because I'd not really connected to a film like that before, save for maybe Donnie Darko. God, this film is so beautiful, I don't mention it a lot but I had a long term illness a few years back and Dakota Fanning, who plays the lead was the first time I'd seen a character with long term illness have any drive and direction rather than just coughing every so often. While the film is show as a love story it's more of a story about Tessa's relationships with the rest of her world, her wild best friend, her heartbroken dad, her distant mum, trying doctors, slightly oblivious younger brother and the boy next door. 

Just to say if you do watch the film, and you should, you will be crying for the last twenty minutes. Get the tissues ready.

5. No Frills Twins - what to say about the No Frills Twins. Two mad awesome twins from Australia who sing, dance, wear awesome thrift shop clothes, make short movies, have hd brows and super long hair? I'm wouldn't say I love them, I just find their lives super interesting, just the way they act and behave, it's in the same way I sometimes watch Kardashian interviews or films about drug dealers. While they're awesome they are kinda problematic, someone needs to sit them down and talk about cultural appropriation, very stereotypical geshia costumes and the n word from very white teenagers isn't cool.

xxx

Rosie